Literally, because there is a hurricane headed my way. Figuratively, because next week is my last set of finals and my Exit HESI. The BIG HESI.
I took Rocky for a walk to the park this morning. The city was deadly calm and hazy. It was/is unbearably humid. The Delaware river was going the wrong way–flowing upstream. The only sound were the cicadas. There really is a calm before the storm and its still going on–very eerie.
I am trying to study but so far I am just going back and forth between FB, Gmail, Hurricane updates, and various fashion or celebrity blogs. I think I know that once I start I will get on a roll. Its just that roll feels so awful and I am now pretty convinced that no matter what I am not going to pass that HESI on the first try. I will pass my classes (knock on wood but I have pretty good grades this quarter so it would be pretty hard to fail–but you never know!!!). Its just that 87% hanging over my head. I have to get 87% to pass. Thats a lot for a pretty huge, difficult test. It would be like getting a 1392 (I did the math) on the SAT–let me tell you here that I did NOT get a 1392 on the SATs.
Luckily there is a retake 2 weeks after the first try. No matter how many times I tell myself its fine if I don’t pass the first time–I know it won’t be fine. I am so ready for the weight of Drexel Ace Nursing to be over that adding 2 more weeks will be very depressing. I know this is relative–I am not dying in Libya–but its still depressing.
The roll–once I start I type and type and type. That’s how I study. I retype and reorganize all my powerpoints (the books are useless). It gets to be fun but I type so much during one week that my wrists and back (stupid computer chair) hurt so much that no amount of advil will help. I think during last finals I typed over 80 pages in 9pt font. I will literally talk to no one for 5 days even though W could be right downstairs. Its gets very lonely. I like the material but I hate the process.
So hopefully, after this, I will starting rolling away. Give Rocky a pat and get into the groove.